Category: Autism

  • Living stones and aliens – or – being a Christian with autistic traits

    I am a Christian. I grew up in a non-religious home but became a Christian at 25-26. I don’t recall a particular date that I can look back on and say “Yes, that’s the day of my conversion because I said the sinner’s prayer/asked Jesus into my heart/was baptised in the Holy Spirit”. It all…

  • Driving

    One of the enormous benefits of being on the waiting list for an autism assessment is that everyone has stopped nagging me about driving. I learnt to drive at 17 in a little manual-gearbox Vauxhall Nova – a fairly standard experience for British teenagers. What wasn’t typical was how many lessons I needed to learn.…

  • Work

    Autistic people have a shockingly low rate of employment. Recent UK statistics from no less a source than the British government report that only 22% of British autistics have any kind of employment. Other research suggests that as few as 16% of autistic people are in full-time employment – and I’m not one of them.…

  • University

    This post comes with a trigger warning for discussion of suicidal ideation. I’ve mentioned my mental health issues during university, including self-harming and a suicide attempt elsewhere so I won’t repeat them here. Instead I’m going to talk about my other difficulties at university and the problems the higher education system has with dealing with…

  • It was my jeans that made me do it…

    No, autism isn’t caused by the MMR or any other vaccine. Despite many (neurotypical) parents noticing changes to their autistic children’s expected behaviour paths at around 12-15 months – exactly the time that they receive their MMR. In fact, current studies suggest between 61-91% heritability and therefore a very strong genetic component. My mother has…

  • Sensitivities

    The following are all sensitivities that I noticed and attempted to mitigate before I realised I had high levels of autistic traits: Light: I wear dark sunglasses from May to September as bright sunlight has always triggered headaches. Sound: I wear special swimmers’ earplugs while showering otherwise I get terrible headaches. I always listen to…

  • We need to talk about Morten Harket

    One of my many annoying habits is asking my husband if he still loves me or does he want to throw me away yet. I’d always assumed it was just because I’m massively insecure and needy (and indeed I may well be), but sometimes it borders on being mindless repetition, almost like a verbal tic…

  • Mental health

    I’ve just left a Zoom conference on Student Mental Health. It was all too triggering for me. I can’t deal with people making dumb allegations about ‘student experience’ that bear no relation to my lived reality. So I’m going to overshare and vent and get it all out here. Buckle up. This post comes with…

  • Meltdowns

    When I told my husband I thought I might be autistic at the start of 2021 he told me to not be so ridiculous because I couldn’t possibly be autistic because I had plenty of empathy. (Don’t worry, we will get to this lack of public understanding about the differences between sociopathic narcissism and autism…

  • Your wife is posh isn’t she?

    Apparently nobody likes the way their voice sounds. But there’s another reason I always cringe on hearing my voice and like to claim I have a voice for print. My accent is terribly posh. So much so that’s often remarked upon by others. And sadly, I don’t have the background to justify it so I…